AES011 Lost

It's a bit hard to start writing about what I've doing during one week. Instead of good news, i just wanna write about bad news. So, couple days ago, one of best friend lost her husband forever. He passed away because of diabetes in age of 33 years old, just right after they got a baby boy after one year of marriage. Bunda always encourage me, to be more stronger than i used to be. but that day, i saw her in her lowest point of life. when I met her, she asked me, lind, kamu pernah ditinggal orang yang kamu sayangi selama nya ? I answered Yes. when I lost my nephew caused of dengue. then she asked, apa kamu pernah ngerasain hancur sehancur hancurnya ? I answered I ever felt. Then, terus kamu gimana, kamu ngapain selama ini ? kalo kamu belum pernah ngerasain kehilangan orangtua, kakak,adik berarti kamu ga kuat dong lind!

I couldn't answer any. I hang down my head and ask myself, am strong enough for lost ? one day, my parents and my son, they're gonna leave me alone. what I supposed to do then ? and all my friend's words resound in my head. Will I be ready for it ?...

While I write this blog, I am still thinking about it. Will I be ready when I lost my parents and my son ? What I supposed to do ? Once in a day, my friend ever asked me about it, and I answered it ngasal. I said I am going to do the solo hiking, go travelling around the country or even around the world and finding the hidden waterfalls or probably, save some money and go to venezuela and visit the highest waterfall in the world named Angel Waterfalls. The one that I read from the internett is with a height of 979 metres (3,212 ft) and a plunge of 807 m (2,648 ft). I knew about the waterfall from aa movie naamed Point Break. Yeahhhh...That's what I've planned for my future.

I wish there is no more lost for people around me. I just wanna life in peace without any broken heart or broken feelings.