AES28 Am I Enough?
As cheesy as it sounds I always wonder like, Am I Enough? Because sometimes or most of the time I feel like Im not enough. I feel like my only personality trait is being a feminist, which I think is great but I don’t know if it’s enough. Im just gonna tell the truth, Im so jealous of my friends. I feel like they have actual talents like they’re good in things that are actual talents. Sometimes Im just really hard on myself like I feel useless. I am a teenage girl that is constantly anxious, can’t do the math, can’t play any musical instrument, and I just talk about feminism.
I don’t know is it normal to feel this way? Like I feel like people are telling me you need to be these things to be considered as someone with talent. And if you don’t have talent, you don’t really matter. This could be just my brain playing tricks on me but right now I feel so bad about myself. I feel like I don’t like who I am. I feel like Im not enough to be loved. I know it’s so dramatic but I really do feel like that.
Sometimes I even think that my friends don’t really like me as a person. Or maybe I just didn’t get enough validation. For some people, validation may seem like something that’s unnecessary but for me I need validation. If I didn’t get the validation that I wanted I will feel like whatever Im doing is pointless. It could also be because I have really bad trust issues even with myself, so as soon as I get the validation I question that validation like Im scared that the person just felt as if they didn’t compliment me. So it’s this loop that keeps spinning and I get trapped inside of that loop, and it makes me feel bad about myself.
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