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AES50 Choosing Friends

Saskia Electrapenulis arsip2

Almost all of my life everyone tell me that I shouldn’t choose the people Im being friends with. They always say that if I choose my friends, im kinda selfish. And I thought it was a good quality that I didn’t choose my friends, I was just friends with everyone. But guess what it was so toxic, not choosing my friends kinda killed one part of my soul. Because I would keep hanging on, on literally toxic friendships. Because if I wanted to end that friendship I would be considered selfish. 

Until I kinda got to a point in my life where I realized that I don’t need to be friends with everyone. Even tho it is a choice but if forcing myself into staying in toxic friendships, what's the point? So I decided that Im going to choose and selected the people that are around me. Because I would prefer to have actually good quality people in my life. And now I know that I have control over that and that it isn’t a bad thing. 

Most of my family and friends have many friends and I thought the more friends you have, that indicated how good of a person you are. So I've lived my life thinking I was a bad person because I didn’t really have many friends. The thing about me was, my social circle was mostly only in Semi Palar. The other thing is that I guess I was pretty mature for my age, because of the things that I've been through. So I wasn’t really in the same state of mind as my friends were, I was just kinda in another world. I couldn’t really connect and relate to my friends. I thought that they were insane, and I think they thought the same thing about me. 

So again about friendship. I think I am the one that's living my life and I have every right to decide who I want to be friends with. Because if a friendship just ends up being toxic, it's gonna hurt me and I have to recover on my own. And I don’t think it's a selfish thing, I think it's important to put yourself as a priority. Quality over quality, I prefer to have just a small friend group with people I actually like and that actually cares about me, compared to a big friend group but they're all fake. So yeah, go live life I guess. 

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