AES55 Day Dreaming
I don’t know is this just like my thing but I am a person that just casually daydreams almost every day. I am not personally proud of this habit, it just shows how Im not really happy with my life right now. Daydreaming is one of my ways to feel happiness and comfort. So when I didn’t receive something in my real reality I try to find it in a fictional reality that I made up in my mind. Or when Im stressed by the things that are happening in real life I kinda try to escape from that stress by daydreaming.
I think it’s really bad that I do this because I have to admit that running away from what’s happening isn’t mature and isn’t right. But on the other side, it helps me to feel comfortable and to remain calm. It’s like, it helps me to achieve what I need but Im not doing it the right way. Even tho it isn’t the right way, it’s the only way that comes up in my mind so I just go for it.
Some of my friends also say they daydream but it’s not as often as I do. I feel like most people receive love and affection from people around them. I have a hard time receiving love and affection due to my trust issues. Im scared that people are gonna take advantage of me, or that people give me attention just because they feel bad for me. I know that that’s not gonna happen when I daydream because Im the one being in control.
So now Im really trying to put my happiness as a priority so that I could be more comfortable with my life. Because it’s literally my life to live and I should be happy and make the most out of it.
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