AES57 Putting Myself as a Priority
This week has been such a hard week for me because I had to make a decision, a very important one. So if any of you know me, I do wushu as my sport, and Im deciding to quit wushu. I’ve been doing wushu for about 9 years now and I’ve learned many things from doing it but I decided that this is the time for it to end. The main reason for my quitting is because I don’t enjoy it now and it is really damaging for my mental health. I feel like im just not the type of person to be in these serious and stressful competitions. I also feel like it’s keeping me away from trying new things, and it takes up so much time to the fact that I don’t get proper rest.
When I was thinking about this I was really scared of how people will react to my decision. So I talked to my mom and she completely supported my choice. I also called Kiran my best friend and she was also very supportive of my decision. Even inside I really felt like a loser, I felt that I was selfish. I felt like I was selfish because people were like counting on me. I felt like I was a loser because I couldn’t live up to people’s expectations and hopes towards me.
Then I was just sitting at my bed and reading my book, and then something just hit me. I realized why am I letting people’s expectations towards me stop me from doing what I want and what makes me happy. I have every right to choose what I want to do to make me happy, even tho it turns down people’s expectations. And I think this is one way for me to grow, in a way that I have to learn that I can’t please everyone. I have to accept that fact. So now Im trying my best to put myself as a priority, I don’t need to do things for others when it’s so damaging for me.
I think this is such an important lesson for everyone. As hard as I’ve tried I never can please everyone. I think no human is capable of that. People may put expectations and hopes towards you, but you are the only one that understands your own capability. Just don’t let people stop you from being happy.
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And this, I completely agree with you too. As long as you already thought it through and aware as you made the decision. That being said, goodluck with the next thing that you want to explore... and have a blast .
thank you so much for the support kak :)
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