AES68 Independent
Growing up I would say I was kinda lonely and I formed to be a very independent person. Don’t get me wrong Im very much grateful for how independent I am, I feel like it helps me with many things,s and it’s one of the strongest values I think I have in myself. But sometimes I don’t really like that being independent makes me so scared to ask for help, sometimes I even feel anxious when I need to ask for help.
Because in my mind asking for help feels like something wrong for me to do, but I never mind when people ask me to help them. I think I just had low self-esteem that I think I don’t matter, that I don’t have any value to people around me. That’s why I think taking care of myself, doing things by myself is the least I could do to somehow form value of myself. But sometimes I wonder to myself, do I really want to be this independent?
If I could turn back time and I could be there for my younger self I wouldn’t let her be that independent. Because I want her to feel like a child when she is a child. I think we should just be okay with the fact that children should be children. I would tell my younger self that it’s okay to need help. I would want her to mature and form independence the right way because she kinda learned to be independent “the hard way”.
But there’s no way that I could turn back time. But now I think what I can do is just need to control my independents. In a way that I try to ask for help. I try to do things together with others. I feel like I just need to get to that harmony of asking for help from others but I can also do things by myself.
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